Does your pain feel bigger than your God? Do you feel it chocking your faith?
Romans 10:17 “Faith comes by hearing and by hearing the word of God.”
God determines the path we walk through; we determine how we walk through that path. If you look at Christ, you will find rest.
Ever watched the movie Heaven is for real? It is based on a true life story of a young boy narrating how he walked in heaven while he had been taken to theatre. I stumbled on it being aired on one of our local TV stations during the Christmas of 2019. I attest that heaven is for real, I am a living testimony that Jesus is alive, my encounter was a similar one. It finally dawned on me that what I had experienced was not hallucinations. I had recited this to my family and friends but I was filled with uncertainty. There is no doubt I encountered God.
I was wheeled to theatre at 4 pm and woke up in ICU at 3 am. Those eleven hours of my life I will never be able to fully explain what happened to me. I fell into a sleep that would have been indefinite if God was not by my side.
I recall my soul leaving my body. I felt so light as I was hoisted to a place that was snowy white. It was so peaceful and the people were clothed in white robes and were jubilant. My hand was held by a man dressed in a shiny white robe that I could not see his countenance. We took a tour around. I remember seeing my father and uncle but I could not talk to them.
As I was there, I would see somewhere below a body struggling to breathe. I saw people lifting their hands and crying to God shouting my name. After a while, the man who never uttered a word to me redirected me back. I returned to my body and felt so fatigued as though I had arrived from a tedious journey.
I was later told that I had lost too much blood – almost 70 percent of my blood volume – but I survived with the 30 percent because Jesus was in it. All my veins collapsed; I was transfused massively and never suffered from transfusion related complications. I was resuscitated and was gone, but Jesus breathed life into me. I previously shared how I had been mismanaged in that hospital but I chose to forgive them because God gave me a second chance to live and testify of His goodness.
Living in pain can teach you to turn to your faith to help you rise above it. Honestly, I have tried to avoid remembering the dark days because they were filled with misery.
When I turn to my Bible, there are verses that God has provided us with the source of strength we need and I know God created us with the capacity to experience horrific, jaw-dropping, mind-blowing, spirit-crushing, devastating pain. It’s either it overwhelms our lives or we invite Him to help us find the joy and hope in abundance. It is up to us to turn to God to make the choice to overcome the pain. To have faith that drives us.
In the Bible the book of 1st Corinthians 10:13 tells us, no temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful and He will not let you be tempted beyond your ability but with the temptation He will also provide the way of escape that you may be able to endure it.
I find the story of Lazarus in the book of John chapter 11 quite captivating, Jesus was capable of healing him before he died. He knew Lazarus was sick, He was his friend but He waited for four days to go raise him from the dead; that His name may be glorified. When life seems to be spiraling out of control, let God’s word be your anchor. Let Jesus take the wheel and let Him direct you. Take everything to prayer, do not sink into fear and pain. Pray, pour out your heart to God, tell Him your worries and ask for peace.
Philippians 4:6-7: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Meditate on these things.”
At times pain can feel bigger than faith and it threatens to strangle your faith. You might ask yourself, in all the universe God you just chose me? It is downright frustrating and painful.
Matthew 17:20 -“So Jesus said to them, ‘because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.‘”
When pain threatens to choke your mustard seed faith, fight it! Your baby faith is enough. God allowed it not because He hates you. Remember Job in the Bible, did God hate him? God does not want you to suffer. He grows us through pain, He wants to draw you closer to Himself. He has something better in store for you or maybe you need to get to understand Him better as a healer. God will use your suffering to mature your faith.
Storms come into our life but they will not last long. Allow Jesus into your storm and He will calm it or when you feel the storm is lasting longer than you expected, He will take you to the other side of the shore.
In stormy seasons it can be hard to maintain hope. Like the disciples in the book of Mark 4:35-41, we are so blinded by the storm that we forget the power and the love of God over our situations. Has your present circumstance taken away your attention from God? We only turn to Him in panic when all along He has been there with us, to sustain us, provide for us and strengthen us to the end.
2 Corinthians 4:18 is a great encouragement for staying focused on eternity.
Find purpose in the pain and praise God through it. It seems counter-intuitive to praise God for the struggles you are facing. He put these hardships for a reason. He uses them to shape and mold you and refine you into the person He intends you to be.
Remember, when things get darker and more chaotic, turn to the scriptures and remind yourself of the reality of the situation and see things from Gods perspective and remember His promises.
You are not alone God is with you!
Rosa is a woman sharing her healing journey in an attempt to help others heal. By opening up about the loss of her pregnancy and uterus, Rosa lets readers into her pain and how faith and family are helping her heal.