Before you come into my life you need to understand that I am damaged and broken. I’m lost. I can’t find myself; I get triggered easily.
I have struggled with a lot of things, including myself. I have lost myself trying to gain others. I have neglected my own emotional needs trying to fulfill that of others. I lost faith in myself in a bid to make others find faith in me. You know they said love your neighbor as yourself, not more than yourself.
I’m not going to trust you for a while because my trust has been broken. People have always left, cheated or chosen someone else over me. So I will need time, reassurance and unconditional love to get healed.
I will need you to keep choosing me. I will need you to care when I text you and say I’m feeling bad again. I will need you to understand me. I will need you to care for me. Above all, I will need you to love me unconditionally.
I am a lot, I know, so before you think I’m always happy, that I will always be positive, that I will always be good…just know that I am a strong woman but I can hide my pain and tears in the finest smile.
Know the reality before you get involved with me, don’t enter my life if you can’t handle it. Don’t say you love me if you know you don’t mean it. Don’t say you care about me if you know it’s just selfishness.
Lastly, don’t touch my heart if you aren’t ready for it or can’t handle it.
